so bored, sick and tired,

SKS1971 2004-04-08 10:35:08

Help me Obi Wan Kenobi, i feel like a Dope!!
Bored, sick & tired of being tired!!! I cant take it anymore. Im taking alot
of antidepressants 225 mg effexor. Also use lortabs for pain. but of course,
i take more than i should. sometimes it (the pain pills) give me an energy
boost.... but not often.. All the pills are prescribed.
God this sucks. i am not really suicidal. but the thought crosses my mind
every now & then, but i dont act on it....
An old friend once told me i was happer and 'nicer' when i was on speed!
(meth) god how i hate that stuff so bad. I havent used anything for many
years, about 8 years. My brain is bored. My creativity is gone. I was
always into artsy stuff. Now i enjoy nothing. I don't even like to watch TV.
I feel like a gooey chewed up piece of gum spat out on the hot pavement and
all dried up.Ouch someone just stepped on me.

Ive always been 'depressed' since i was a kid. But not this bad. The speed i
did in the past sure didn't make matters any better. But i felt yummy when I
was wired....
But goddammmit i wish i could get out of this rut i've been in for 3 years.
I dont do any illegal drugs but im getting desperate, in a bad way ...
please someone help any advice... yes i am seeing a shrink 1x a month. Yes i
take vitamins. Maybe i should just quit taking the antidepressant ....
Maybe a brain transplant. aw shit who cares.
sorry for the long post

PYROKNIGHT418@AOL.COM (PYROKNIGHT418) 2004-04-08 18:34:41

personally, i would try to get off the man made chemical shit. ive heard alot
of horror stories associated with anti depressants... ie feeling like a zombie,
having no emotion, etc.

the lorcets dont produce any euphoria? how high is the tolerance?

one more thing, have you tried smoking some bud? you didnt seem to mention it,
but i noticed "i dont do illegal drugs but getting desperate". try something
gentle like pot, which comes from the ground, not a labratory.

best of wishes buddy

Smokey_McPot

~SHADY ANGEL~ 2004-04-09 14:50:29

sks1971 wrote:

> Help me Obi Wan Kenobi, i feel like a Dope!!
> Bored, sick & tired of being tired!!! I cant take it anymore. Im
> taking alot of antidepressants 225 mg effexor. Also use lortabs for
> pain. but of course, i take more than i should. sometimes it (the
> pain pills) give me an energy boost.... but not often.. All the pills
> are prescribed.
> God this sucks. i am not really suicidal. but the thought crosses my
> mind every now & then, but i dont act on it....
> An old friend once told me i was happer and 'nicer' when i was on
> speed! (meth) god how i hate that stuff so bad. I havent used
> anything for many years, about 8 years. My brain is bored. My
> creativity is gone. I was always into artsy stuff. Now i enjoy
> nothing. I don't even like to watch TV. I feel like a gooey chewed up
> piece of gum spat out on the hot pavement and all dried up.Ouch
> someone just stepped on me.
>
> Ive always been 'depressed' since i was a kid. But not this bad. The
> speed i did in the past sure didn't make matters any better. But i
> felt yummy when I was wired....
> But goddammmit i wish i could get out of this rut i've been in for 3
> years. I dont do any illegal drugs but im getting desperate, in a bad
> way ... please someone help any advice... yes i am seeing a shrink 1x
> a month. Yes i take vitamins. Maybe i should just quit taking the
> antidepressant .... Maybe a brain transplant. aw shit who cares.
> sorry for the long post

Sorry, I haven't much to say but go see you doctor and tell them what you're
feeling, try a different antidepressant maybee? Good luck.
--
~shady angel~

SKS1971 2004-04-09 12:52:18

I hate Bud. Tried it when i was younger never liked it it makes me hungry &
tired and paranoid. Tried it once again a couple years ago. I remember being
stoned and going to Target and i was so fricking paranoid i thought everyone
knew i was stoned... I'd rather get drunk.
My pain pill tolerance is pretty low, i can take 2-3 pills and fell a bit of
euphoria from the lortabs. I don't want to be abusing them and get all
hooked, but at this point i probably already am. I use them for chronic head
& neck aches.
I am seriously considering tapering down off the effexor. i started at 37.5
mg late last year, it worked at forst then nothing, them they bumped my dose
up twice. i feel worse.
i also have nightmares, always have.. people dying, getting lost, getting
ripped off. you know, the normal weird stuff.. seeing monsters. i talk &
scream alot in my sleep. so now i take .25 mg of resperidal. that stuff
helped a bit with making the bad dreams go away. good stuff. i think i'll
need the dose upped. But, then again, my dreams are more interesting than
real life.

DRUGS. cant live with em, can't live without 'em! I guess i really screwed
up my brain and my body from doing meth in the past.. over ten tears ago.
Remember back when the shit was good? And wasn't cut with all the crap they
put in in now....
I won't do that crap (meth) ever never no way. Unless someone offered me
alot of money :)... Nasty shit straight from hell. I HATE TWEEKERS. there
should be an island we could put them all on it, so they would stop tweeking
on everything and stop ripping everyone off. "Hey tweeker, I dropped a huge
rock on the freeway- you better get out there and find it!!" I saw a
tweeker girl the other day, skanky and just plain gross. i actually stopped
my car and looked at it, it was so creepy yet funny. Like pippy longstocking
meets boy george meets night of the living dead. i almost puked.

Heck, but a line of coke sure sounds temping just to get me going. That
comes out of the ground, right?? hehehe.

Thanks for your time

knight418@aol.com> wrote in message
news:20040408143441.29762.00000018@mb-m13.aol.com...

> personally, i would try to get off the man made chemical shit. ive heard

alot

> of horror stories associated with anti depressants... ie feeling like a

zombie,

> having no emotion, etc.
>
> the lorcets dont produce any euphoria? how high is the tolerance?
>
> one more thing, have you tried smoking some bud? you didnt seem to mention

it,

> but i noticed "i dont do illegal drugs but getting desperate". try

something

> gentle like pot, which comes from the ground, not a labratory.
>
> best of wishes buddy
>
> Smokey_McPot

WEE96@HOTMAIL.COM (DAVE) 2004-04-10 12:03:06

"sks1971" wrote in message news:...

> Help me Obi Wan Kenobi, i feel like a Dope!!
> Bored, sick & tired of being tired!!! I cant take it anymore. Im taking alot
> of antidepressants 225 mg effexor. Also use lortabs for pain. but of course,
> i take more than i should. sometimes it (the pain pills) give me an energy
> boost.... but not often.. All the pills are prescribed.
> God this sucks. i am not really suicidal. but the thought crosses my mind
> every now & then, but i dont act on it....
> An old friend once told me i was happer and 'nicer' when i was on speed!
> (meth) god how i hate that stuff so bad. I havent used anything for many
> years, about 8 years. My brain is bored. My creativity is gone. I was
> always into artsy stuff. Now i enjoy nothing. I don't even like to watch TV.
> I feel like a gooey chewed up piece of gum spat out on the hot pavement and
> all dried up.Ouch someone just stepped on me.
>
> Ive always been 'depressed' since i was a kid. But not this bad. The speed i
> did in the past sure didn't make matters any better. But i felt yummy when I
> was wired....
> But goddammmit i wish i could get out of this rut i've been in for 3 years.
> I dont do any illegal drugs but im getting desperate, in a bad way ...
> please someone help any advice... yes i am seeing a shrink 1x a month. Yes i
> take vitamins. Maybe i should just quit taking the antidepressant ....
> Maybe a brain transplant. aw shit who cares.
> sorry for the long post

Give me a ring via email if you wanna talk, Ive been through similar
situations like you it sounds like. I went through the ant-depressant
nightmare, im currently on vicodins (running low, probably wont get
anymore either, will then resort to darvocets for about 40 or so pills
then after that, ultram) as ive got a couple injuries that arent ever
going to get better, therapy or not they HURT. Anyway, get off the
anti-depressants, they are evil and cause creativity to be taken out
of the dictionary. They also cause sex a form of torture for both
parties, since the one on the pill cant finish. Anyway if you want
some advice from someone im happy to help.

MICHAEL MAJCZYK 2004-04-12 11:14:11

get off the vicodin slowly!

"sks1971" wrote in message
news:c3gdc.13390$Vo.10974@fed1read03...

> Help me Obi Wan Kenobi, i feel like a Dope!!
> Bored, sick & tired of being tired!!! I cant take it anymore. Im taking

alot

> of antidepressants 225 mg effexor. Also use lortabs for pain. but of

course,

> i take more than i should. sometimes it (the pain pills) give me an energy
> boost.... but not often.. All the pills are prescribed.
> God this sucks. i am not really suicidal. but the thought crosses my mind
> every now & then, but i dont act on it....
> An old friend once told me i was happer and 'nicer' when i was on speed!
> (meth) god how i hate that stuff so bad. I havent used anything for many
> years, about 8 years. My brain is bored. My creativity is gone. I was
> always into artsy stuff. Now i enjoy nothing. I don't even like to watch

TV.

> I feel like a gooey chewed up piece of gum spat out on the hot pavement

and

> all dried up.Ouch someone just stepped on me.
>
> Ive always been 'depressed' since i was a kid. But not this bad. The speed

> did in the past sure didn't make matters any better. But i felt yummy when

> was wired....
> But goddammmit i wish i could get out of this rut i've been in for 3

years.

> I dont do any illegal drugs but im getting desperate, in a bad way ...
> please someone help any advice... yes i am seeing a shrink 1x a month. Yes

> take vitamins. Maybe i should just quit taking the antidepressant ....
> Maybe a brain transplant. aw shit who cares.
> sorry for the long post
>
>

PAUL 2004-04-12 18:02:12

Seems like being a druggie screws up the usefulness of psychiatric
medication IMO. Anyways there are lots of different antidepressants, you
might consider wellbutrin since it is (sort of a stimulant) but not the
kind of thing that'd be interesting to abuse... takes a month to get the
effect & doesn't interfere with sex... Do you know if you might also be
ADD? I ask because your friend said you were nicer on speed & naturally
creative. Obviously regular heavy doses to the point of addiction are
not good & probably you couldn't handle a prescription for that stuff
(your doc could get in trouble if he knew you were addicted to speed
before also) but there are other non-addictive medications for ADD. It's
common for people to use pretty complicated cocktails for mixed symptoms
too. Takes a lot of time to work out.

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